It is pretty funny how terrible you were when you’re emotional and breaking down. It is even funnier when you recognize you’re terrible when you’re healed and better. I’m looking back at those months ago of stupidity when I was overly dramatic and claiming all the pain in this world and I’m glad all I can do is laugh now. Lol.
Well, I’ve tried to write down anything in this blog for weeks already. It was actually frustrating to the point that my head throbbed in pain just to think of a topic to post. Then now I acknowledge I’m no writer at all when I am calm. I think this brain only functions when I am in deep emotions (whatever emotion it may be). My life ins’t dull at the moment but I think I don’t have such extreme drive to share them. This is healing, and I am embracing all the therapeutic and non-therapeutic measures.
Sometimes it feels better not to feel the extremes at all. It sounds boring, but it is peaceful. There is this saying that you leave everything behind and find yourself in the process again. Maybe I am in this phase of life at the moment. I may be dull and boring and lifeless, but it feels good and serene and calming. I don’t lose myself, although this world never gets tired of throwing up hard stuff on you, I’ve mastered the game of protecting thy self first 🙂
For the record I have nothing else to share. Really. Nothing.
But I’d like to pass this calmness in me to all the readers out there, trying to gather all the inspiration I once lost when I had let myself be destroyed. Really it is nice to look back at those hard rocks thrown at you because the scars remind you of how strong you are for enduring and fighting the battle. It isn’t always about winning the battle, it is more of how well you did in the battlefield! So much feels for this. 🙂