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FINALLY!

Finally. 
All the questions I have inside my head turned into a big blast of hurtful, yet satisfying answers. Over the years I believed in you. It is a shame to finally learn the truth over these tremendous lies. I asked myself what was I thinking to face again a worthless past, or to why I still call it a “past”, for we both know it never happened. Finally I realized it by my own investigatory skills, as I treated you my case since the day you left me feeling so bad about myself.
Distressed as I may look, I am thankful. Finally, I can say, FINAAAALLLLY! 
Finally I can breathe in reality.
Finally there are no more what-if’s.
Finally I’ve been given the clues.
and finally I did not reach that point of destroying myself for not getting what I want.
I’ve given you too many chances to straight up what’s been ruined, but you chose not to. No matter how fooled I was, I don’t regret the chance of experiencing this. What I regret is the fact that I couldn’t straight this up to you.
The lies.
The made up excuses.
The too-good-to-be-true stories.
The fake arguments. The fictional characters of your life’s stories.
The well-rehearsed feelings.
The imaginary friendship and mutuality.
The unreasonable yet inevitable pain.
FINALLY...
It’s all true now…now that I discovered what’s the truth behind all of these obtuse lies. How melancholic. But at least, I freed myself from all of these stupidities. I got the liberty of peace 🙂 The feeling of finally letting go of what’s been hindering you for the past two years. The questions of why, and the answers of how come, and the fact that it has never been your fault.

 

I am happy now.
Finally. 
It is totally over!!!!!! 🙂 
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Well. This is, for most of the time, the hardest part to fill in. Maybe because I am not the type of person who loves to talk about herself. But in this site you can read the pieces of my life, my ups and downs, my victories and defeats. This is the only outlet where my brain can team up with my heart. For everyone who can't construct the words in the clouds of life. Happy reading! ❤️

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